oh i sure as hell (pun not intended) remember this sentence. 5x01 “Sympathy For The Devil”

i love bobby and whenever he is (‘was’ *cry*) on screen i paid extra attention to everything he said, to every little detail his eyes, his whole body language was projecting.

It was one of the most painful moments for me to see how heartbroken Sam was when Bobby told him to lose his number. i sure have a kink for hurt!sam… but there is a difference between hurt!sam and heartbroken!sam… and right then and there, when bobby said those words i KNEW he was possessed. i remember i’ve said that in another post before. because those are his sons, if not by blood, but def. by heart. he’d never break sam’s heart, no matter how much shit sam’d pull.

anyway… back to the actual question.

no matter the fact that Dean was totally caught off guard by demon!Bobby, he’d NEVER fight Bobby, he wouldn’t hurt him, not intentionally. i think dean would rather die. he knew he’d never fight bobby, that’s why he didn’t argue.. all he did was whispering, pleading, begging: “Bobby”. and i think that’s all Bobby needed to take control for just enough time to yank that knife into his own body. the whispered “Bobby” meant more than just saying a name. as i understand it (just watch his face when he says it) he’s telling him to focus, take control over his body again and stop this madness. basically dean is telling Bobby that he loves him, just like a son loves his father.

he covered his face, well, more his eyes than anything else. he squeezed them shut, not wanting to see being hurt by the only person who’s ever treated him like a son.

and bobby didn’t look strange at Sam. it was more the opposite actually. sam thanked him, for forgiving him, for making clear that he’d “never cut him out. not ever.” Bobby was just a little annoyed by the fact that one of his boys started this kind of crap. always in trouble those kids - that’s what his eyes tell me. 

….he deserves a damn medal for that. ;)

i hope this answer helps you a little. i mean… if it’s about bobby i just can’t stop to talk, ramble and argue. i just love him way too much. for everything he’s ever done for his boys. he might be grumpy, but he’s got a bigger heart than anyone else ever will have on this show.

<3

a couple o’ days ago i made a lil’ post about Amelia and what I think of her and this whole applepie life sam’s suppose to love.
You can check it out here

for me it feels like the show is heading towards the end.
i’m one of the few people who don’t really care much about the Cas storyline. i know and i think it’s good, that Cas is important and i def. need him on the show, but the most important issue (for me!) is the brother’s bond. and i mean this in a non-shipper way. i want them to be brothers again - fighting for one another, killing everything that’s getting in the way of them being, or trying to be, somewhat happy.

i don’t ever want this show to end, but that’s wishful thinking, i’m aware of that. but when this show ends, i don’t want to see neither one of them dead. ever. not unless their is a possibility of them coming back.

purgatory is… it’s still a little foggy to me. they (writers) just had to go down that way and i like it. it’s too much worry about Cas though. i need those brothers to be them again. purgatory fucked that up. i just hope that this whole crap gets sorted out soon.

i don’t know, man. it’s too much hurt lately. too much frustration. gah.

isn’t it weird that sometimes you have to watch an episode 10 times before you see what’s happening there. i would appreciate it if you don’t start a discussion on who looks better in that blue jumpsuit. we all know the answer to that.

I’m not sure if this has been discussed before. But it just NOW hit me, why the boys said the baby’s name was Bobby John and why Dean said Bobby and soulless Sam said John.

I have seen this episode so many times before but never gave a thought to that baby’s name. 

When you are a parent or about to become a parent and you have to think about names for the baby you’ll always think about relatives first. You go through all names - parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles and so on.

Dean Winchester, raised to be a soldier, saw John more as a boss who’s rules and orders he had to follow, but not as a father figure. But Bobby was a father to him. That’s why he was the one who said the baby’s name is BOBBY.

Sam Winchester, at this point soulless, was raised to be a soldier as well but split with his father and brother… you know the story. But being soulless he didn’t care about Bobby or anyone else. Yet he went through the same process of how to pick a name. So his answer had to be ‘John’. Basically his thoughts must have been: “yeah whatever. my father’s name was John. That baby’s name is gonna be John.” He would have said ‘Bobby’ as well, wouldn’t he have been soulless.

Everything is so fucked up right now.

First the writers kill Bobby, then they bring him back.
Now they kill him. AGAIN. Probably for good this time. But Jim Beaver wasn’t so sure about that when I was talking to him. So I keep my hopes up. Let’s hope I won’t get knocked in the face with those hopes.

We wanted baby back, we got her back. But them writers let Meg kind of destroy her.

We wanted Dick dead, so the boys get to kill him. But in order to save the world, Dean’s going to Purgatory. He went through hell - in every sense of the term, so I think there’ll be a way to manage getting out of Purgatory as well. I don’t even want to think of how this might end up.

The flask is destroyed. Cas has to collect all his marbles and get my Bobby back. That should work. Sounds like a good plan.

But the writers need to come up with something good in order to make poor little Castiel happy again.

Cas wants a cat, doesn’t get one. Cas wants to play twister with everyone, ends up playing it alone. Poor dude ain’t being that lucky lately.

And seriously… what’s with those fucking alien-terminator-looking monsters in Purgatory?! They should’ve had Dick saying: “I’ll be back” to match them crappy monsters.

God. I don’t think that this post makes any sense at all.

But seriously. I’m more than confused now. We’ve gotta wait …what?… about 150 days ‘til 8x01?!
And where the fuck is Lucifer? Is he still in Cas’ noggin? I need to see Lucifer again. 
And writers, please… let us know what the fuck’s up with Crowley… Mark Sheppard made it clear, that he isn’t really a demon. So what the heck is he? Is he in some kind of witness protection program as well? Because that’s what I’ve been thinking since forever.

Way too many questions.

-i’m going to sing stairway to heaven now-

all my other shitty recaps can be found here.

file that under things that confuse me.

Sam & Dean Winchester - dying for each other over and over again. Making deals with demons to bring the other one back to life. 

4x01 - Bobby to Dean:
“Nah, Sam didn’t burn your bones. He didn’t want that. Because maybe he’ll find a way to bring you back.” … and so on. But we all know no demon would make a deal with Sam. Because we all know.. they had to introduce the angels and they needed Dean exactly where he was: in hell. Yup. So far so good.

Season 2:
Dean making a deal, taking one year for Sam. 

Season 7:
Bobby is dead - the only real father they ever had. -Don’t try to argue about this with me. Read my recaps for my opinion on this subject.

Anywho… 

So Bobby is dead. Family. Their ‘father’. 
And what do Sam & Dean do? They burn his bones and make sure he can’t come back.

I will never understand why they didn’t try to work something out, why they didn’t try to make a deal. It’s not like this fandom isn’t used to either one of them dying - mostly Dean though. And Jensen said it himself: ‘arghhh. don’t worry, he’s coming back’ [about Dean dying all the time]

Did Jim want to leave? As far as what I’ve heard: NO. They made him leave. They called him and told him: ‘yay we gonna kill you off’. Jim said it himself that he misses the boys. Those stupid idjits who decided it would be a great idea to just have Dick kill Bobby - dishonor on your everything!

… I just want my Bobby back!

-and to all of you who think I’m bitching too much again:

Crying, hoping, more crying, even more hoping. Less happiness.